I have been working for the past 8 years and apart from a 7 month-break during my pregnancy, I have never really taken a professional break in my life. I started working in IT as a Software Tester in 2006 and although I started from a small company, I loved my job. I loved the fact that every day was a new challenge, that every day I got to learn something new in my job. I loved the way we had fun along with the load of work that came our way.
But several years and two companies later, my enthusiasm for my work fizzled and now I have reached that phase in my life where I desperately crave for a break in my work. Am I in a mid-life crisis? Probably. Maybe an early mid-life crisis!
I knew it was time to say “Enough-is-Enough” when I started to get my work frustration back home. I became cranky, I used to shout, without much of a reason, at my daughter and my husband. I cried at the slightest of provocation and some days I sat alone brooding and feeling sorry for myself.
But I have realized that it’s time to take some action before my life spirals out of my control.
So after months and months of consideration, and deliberation due to the fact that my husband and I have financial commitments, I have finally decided to quit my current job. My resignation letter is sent and I can sigh a breath of relief. But I have my moments of panic too when my mind begins to register that this is the first time in 8 years that I probably won’t have a job in my hand.
Of course I have started applying for similar jobs in my field but I’m in no hurry. I am weighing all my options and taking my own sweet time to decide my future. But for now I feel a huge weight has been lifted off from my shoulders.
There are still two more months to go before I can leave my current job but I can already feel the effect of my decision on my health and my mood. I think in life, there comes times when we have to take a tough decision, a decision that might upset others, that might cause discomfort to others but sometimes, just sometimes, you should put yourself before others and think about your own life.
That’s what I have done, and believe me when I say that this is one of the few decisions that I have taken right.
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